My mom found out some old photos last month and there were loads of a young me posing with a cheesy grin.
I don’t remember being that camera happy child, but it made me smile.
From as far back as I can remember, I always hated having my photo taken. The majority of my secondary school life was spent avoiding the camera, and always offering to be the photographer for my friends.
Now I think about it, I know when my opinion on pictures changed. When I was little, I didn’t care about what I looked like. I wasn’t one of those childs who would always try out their mom’s makeup and what not. I just plodded on with life, having a whale of a time.
But of course when you get to secondary school, things are completely different. I still never wore makeup apart from mascara until I was 17. That was out of choice, but I never felt as pretty as the other girls. My self confidence in general was at the lowest it’s ever been. I wasn’t my biggest fan. So I didn’t want any evidence of my current, now past, self.
Now I’m 20, I think it’s a bit of a shame that I don’t really have any photos of the majority of my teenage years. Apart from the old school photo my parents bought. I mean, those forced ones are probably the worst of them all!! I’m sure I’d prefer one of the silly selfies I took with my friends.
On the other hand, like I said, it wasn’t a time in my life where I felt the best about myself. So maybe I’d feel worse if I kept seeing my younger teenage self everywhere, reminding me of those days. But we’ll never know now.
I’m sure it doesn’t come as a surprise when I say, I don’t hate having my picture taken anymore.
People don’t believe me when I tell them I used to hate having my photo taken. I mean, you’d only have to take one look at my instagram to think I was lying.
Even I find it funny that me, a girl who was incredibly shy with zero self confidence, now has a fashion and lifestyle blog and a YouTube channel. Of course I had gained a lot more confidence before starting this blog, mainly because I had begun to find my personal style and found a job I enjoyed.
But ever since starting this website, I’ve really started to believe in myself. Having my little space on the internet has made me grow as a person and inspired me to keep doing the things I want to do.
I’m much happier with the way I look and myself in general now, and it’s the best feeling ever.
From a girl who despised being on camera, to now having a hobby where being on camera is the main focus.
I feel like a different person to that girl with zero confidence now. I still have days where I don’t feel too good about myself and there’s not a day where I don’t think about how I used to feel.
It’s taken a while to get to this point, but it’s so refreshing to now love having my photo taken. Or shall I say, taking my own photo. I never thought I’d have a camera roll with one selfie, let alone many.
Self love is a feeling I hope everyone can experience at some point in their life! We all deserve it.
Do you like having your photo taken?